Bah ecoute c'est super hein. On se voit la semaine prochaine. C'est la folie totale. On adore. On devrait faire ça plus souvent.
i know i'm overreacting but I'm really mad. i'll be okay tonight. but if I see she's seeing her I'll be really really really freaking mad. And I have no right to feel this way I know it already. I don't know I'm just really mad.
Mais juste: t'es pas folle. T'es pas horrible. T'es pas détestable. T'es pas tout ce que tu décris. T.es absolument pas ce que tu penses de toi même. Mes mots vont servir à rien je le sais, je sais pas pourquoi je continue à écrire même mais c'est comme ça. Un jour tout ira mieux.”
Parce que t'es toi. Que t'auras toujours les mots. Que t'es exceptionnelle. Que tu mérites tout le bonheur du monde. Merci pour tout LB.
I'm so sad. I knew it was going to be tough when she left the school and that I was going to be all by myself with my own thoughts. But I didn't think I was going to feel so under. I'm back to square one. When I was feeling so much better in 2014. I don't know how I'm going to deal with it. I don't know.
My friend talked to me about something super important on Saturday. She told me that she had suicidal thoughts. And that she wanted to but felt like a coward. Just like me.
i don't know if talking about it to someone will help me I'm too scared to talk about it I'm dealing with it so badly .. i hate it i hate it so much To feel this way about a person and knowing it's insane and totally not healthy It's crazy how shitty my mind is how fucking fucked up do you have to be to think like that It's literally killing me